Music Making come to an End!!

[Ashley]

Hi everybody!

Today I have hit a wall in my music journey with mental health as the main reason why I will not be making anymore music. I know some of you have followed my music journey and have loved my music but as it is for me, I’ll be discontinuing it effective immediately. For reasons I do not wish to discuss here, I can only say I am proud of what I have made so far and it’s been a wonderful journey for me but as things are with me, it has finally come to an end. Thanks to everybody for all your support and encouragement through the past few years where I have published my music online on YouTube, forums and Facebook.

For me my musical highlight would have to be making metal / zombie music that transforms my lived experience of mental illness and drug use of dependence and put it into my music. I have had a hard past life but that does not mean my quality of life has been any less so. I have lived my life everyday at 150% and continue to do. Somethings these days make it hard to recover from past damage and stopping music making was not a decision made in haste.

I don’t know if I’ll recover fully but, I must say it’s been a great musical journey for me, and I have made lots of friends along the way. As I say always do everything to the best you can with excellence in everything that you do, that is my belief. Do not hesitate to ask questions and ask for help, reach out and learn new stuff.

That is it for me and I have to go now. Thanks to everybody for all your wonderful help and support. I will be signing off on my music as per now, though I will be still around about sometimes on the web. For everything the fav and best of past and present with me go visit my website at Schizkitty! Have great future endeavors everybody and If you have anything further contact me through my website. Thanks, and all the best, Alisha aka Ashley HM.

[DollarBill]

Never hesitate to take care of yourself first. If your situation changes, music will still be there for you. Best wishes.

[Ifunkus]

Hi Ash, good luck on your new journey. You are an amazing woman, with flare. Your music stuff was on another level, you could really bang yourself out there, woman with dignity and promise. Mental health is important thats why I haven't been around. Haven't made music in a couple of years, because I'm restricted with alcoholism and cocain addiction.
You post has made me sad, because you are a regular and decent.
Hope you will sort your difficulties and you will become a better person for it. And as dollerbill said the music is always there, when you come through it.

[Heigen5]

Hi Ash! I believe into your recovery, hold up! You might need a break and have some kind of a pause in the music making. Remember that you love making music, so don't throw it away yet. Feel free to get back to it later on!!
Art making is very good thing for mental health and also doing something valuable. But hey sister, get well and I send prayers towards you too!

[Ashley]

Thanks, everybody. Music is not gone forever, I may get back to it sometime in the future. At the moment I have detuned and put away my guitars into storage. I am focusing on other stuff now and doing other stuff, that I like doing. Over the last 2 weeks when I came to this decision, when I was making music I lost having fun with it, so that's why I have finished up doing it for a long while. Thanks everybody for understanding this with me. All the best, A.

[Trobador222]

I wish you the best at what ever you choose to do Ashley. I would like to hear your music again, if you choose to make it. And I certainly hope you stick around here.

[Ashley]

Thanks Henry!
Yeah I'll be still around I guess, but in a less active form.
As per my music, I'm not doing that anymore, for awhile anyway. Over the last couple of weeks I lost the 'fun' out of making my music and it felt like a chore, so I have given it up for now, but also nothing is forever!